Reflections At The End Of The Day

. This year I'll be fifty-eight years old. I don't feel fifty-eight. I feel like I'm still a young girl.......with a lot of life experience.....in a slightly used body. But, I'm starting to see the world a bit differently. I have one son, Chris, that will be a homeschool senior next year. Then, Taylor is in eighth grade. Mostly, all my other children are adults. Where I was driving a van full of children.......now, metaphorically speaking, I'm driving a convertible. The wind is tossing my hair around. Sixty is around the corner. Our home is sooooo quiet. Twenty-seven years of homeschooling is behind me. It seems strange.

The world truly looks different to me now. I find myself thinking about how I want the rest of my years to be.....More relaxed mostly is what comes to mind. I want to do more with my disabled children......going to museums, movies, the zoo..... I'd like to attend a weekly Bible study and make new friends there. I want to earn my Black Belt in TKD. I'd like to become a lean, mean, physically fit machine!! I want to watch Tim in most of his triathlons. I feel connected to him in a special way watching him participate in something so important to him.

I want to visit all my adult children where they live, stacking up many lunches, dinners, and coffee breaks with them.

I want to plan weddings and welcome grandchildren.....

I want to value each day......

I want to be comfortable in my "not so young" skin and be grateful for what is to come.....

Then, I think how blessed I am to live in America......to even be able to have dreams......

To someday be sixty something and even have the expectation of a more relaxed life.....

How fortunate I am.....